Today, I am reading and commenting on  Psalms 38-44.

As I read these Psalms today I thought I saw a flow of ideas.  Let’s see how that works out.   I am going to write this the way I see it applying to me.  I start with seeing how the psalmist acknowledged that God had reason to be angry with him and begged God not to discipline him in that anger.  He goes on the beg God not to leave him, not to go away from him.  I recognize this in my own life.  God has ample reason to be angry with me, to abandon me to my fate.   The psalmist goes on to write of how he tried to keep silent, to avoid saying the wrong thing at the wrong time by saying nothing at all.  Perhaps I am misreading it, but it seems like the psalmist said something which caused hurt in another and regretted it.  In any case, I know that I have said things which upset people, things I wish I had not said.  Every time after doing so, I promise to keep my big mouth shut.  But just as the psalmist wrote, I soon find the words welling up within me.  Soon I cannot help myself and I must speak out against the foolishness I hear others saying.  I feel the spirit, and some of the time, the Spirit, compelling me to speak.  For a time, I seek to only speak the words which the Spirit gives me, but eventually I lose my humility and begin to say that which comes from me, not from God and I find myself back where I started.  So, I will strive to wait patiently for the Lord, and only speak the words He desires me to speak.  When I fail once more, and I know that I will fail once more, I will still put my hope in Him and praise the Lord with all that I am.

I use the daily Bible reading schedule from “The Bible.net” for my daily Bible reading.